Rage Against The Machine

Election Day. It's 4:15pm, Tuesday, November 3rd, and I'm sweating and shaking and, if I weren't sober, I'd be plugging down multiple bottles of wine. Instead, I'm scarfing all the leftover Halloween candy from our untouched plastic pumpkin stuffed with full-size candy bars. Incidentally, just 2 days ago in the calm before the storm, I…

Me and Taylor

I had a dream last night. I was hanging out at a larger party, like a weekend of parties, like a music conference, but in a smaller party, like in my house with Taylor Swift. Yep. That's right. And we were watching on TV a video she had just made of a song she wrote…

Mother’s Day #3

This time last year, this exact date, we were dunking our little guy in the Harpeth River with my Mom and my Dad and my sister and her daughter and my brother and Jamey's entire family around us. Jamey and I were standing waist deep in the freezing water with Huck, surrounded by our beautiful…

Baby Shark

I was in the shower today and I wanted to take a bath, so I made my shower as calming as I could, like a bath. Ran the water hot. Lit a candle. Decided I would take longer. Luxuriate in the quiet. Birds chirping outside the window. Rain falling. My son asleep for his afternoon…

Rest

On Wednesday, I picked up my desktop along with a backup drive full of folders full of files not named what I named them.  Nothing seemed to be in any kind of order.  My head was spinning. At the small computer store in East Nashville, which looks like an old pawn shop full of old…

2 Year Molars

Dreams about teeth falling out or breaking is the most common nightmare adults have. I know this because I’ve looked it up a few times. Online, there exists the most out-there interpretations, like ‘you are about to have an argument with your sibling’ to the more general ‘you are experiencing stress.’ It’s like Horoscopes, these…

Lost and Found

It's 11pm and I'm usually asleep by now.  Our routine is pretty solid in these pandemic times, thanks to my husband's organizational chart. It keeps one of us always off Huck duty so I can check emails, teach, surf Poshmark, scroll scroll scroll through everyone else's fabulous lives on Instagram (ps. I hate Instagram so…

Chop Wood, Carry Water

  24 months Two. My day is divided into blocks of 2 hour shifts now. 2 hours with H. 2 hours to myself. 2 hours we both have to ourselves while he naps. 2 hours on. 2 hours off. One makes his dinner. One bathes him. A few bedtime stories, always the same. Wheels. Elephant.…

Still*ness

I decide to allow myself the day to be completely unproductive. To do nothing. Then I panic after reading a chapter of my book that I'm doing nothing. I'm wasting this blessing of a time (only a blessing, which feels selfish, because I'm not sick and my family is, so far, unscathed) literally doing nothing. This…